Work

My life has definitely not followed the path that I thought it would. As an ambitious kid, I never planned to be a stay at home momma. The goal was graduate college and then work my way up the corporate ladder. In the age of movies like Working Girl, I was an 80s girl who…

Struggling

Sometimes it is a struggle just to function with the every day things, the things that all adults deal with. The weight of all of it can feel like too much. All the bad stuff feels magnified. But there’s also that part that sits in the background thinking, none of this matters because I lost…

Motherhood is a Lonely Road

There’s so much joy in motherhood, but damn, there is also so much sadness. We raise our kids to leave us. We put our all into being a mom. When they are little, mom is their world. But slowly, as it is supposed to be, Momma becomes less and less important. The transition moves to…

New Year’s Resolution

At the beginning of the new year, I do not like to think in terms of ‘resolutions.’ From past experience, I’ve learned that I set myself up for disappointment, disappointment in myself, when I claim a New Year’s Resolution. And let’s face it, it is too easy to get down on yourself for your imperfections,…

I’m Not Sure Where I Went Wrong

In the beginning of parenthood, I feel like I did a pretty good job. When my oldest 4 kids were little (so like ages 0, 2, 4, 6) our life, our home, was filled with laughter, love, chaos, craziness, but all good things. Even though, at the time, life was somewhat stressful with money struggles,…

The Covid Crazy

Please do not think I am downplaying the people who have died from Covid or who have had major health issues because of covid. I am not. But I have a few observations that I feel like I need to make when I see all the craziness that continues to grow around the world in…

Negative Vibes

Sometimes I wonder why our home often feels full of negative vibes. I try SO hard to be positive. It’s the yogi in me. I think I probably try harder to be positive now than I did before Nolan’s death. Perhaps that is because I just didn’t really think too much about the need to…

Alone

I don’t know how to make friends anymore. I don’t really fit in anywhere.

I’m Angry

Let me preface by saying that what you have to know about me, if I am actually posting this, is that I work SUPER hard to be positive, to be light, to be love, to be kindness. I’ve learned the hard way that life is short. So I try to focus on what is good….