I’m Not Sure Where I Went Wrong

In the beginning of parenthood, I feel like I did a pretty good job. When my oldest 4 kids were little (so like ages 0, 2, 4, 6) our life, our home, was filled with laughter, love, chaos, craziness, but all good things. Even though, at the time, life was somewhat stressful with money struggles,…

The Covid Crazy

Please do not think I am downplaying the people who have died from Covid or who have had major health issues because of covid. I am not. But I have a few observations that I feel like I need to make when I see all the craziness that continues to grow around the world in…

Negative Vibes

Sometimes I wonder why our home often feels full of negative vibes. I try SO hard to be positive. It’s the yogi in me. I think I probably try harder to be positive now than I did before Nolan’s death. Perhaps that is because I just didn’t really think too much about the need to…

Alone

I don’t know how to make friends anymore. I don’t really fit in anywhere.

I’m Angry

Let me preface by saying that what you have to know about me, if I am actually posting this, is that I work SUPER hard to be positive, to be light, to be love, to be kindness. I’ve learned the hard way that life is short. So I try to focus on what is good….

Right Now is Liam’s Time

It’s been a crazy, crazy month or so.  Really more than a month.   The entire month of July was prepping for Liam’s graduation celebration.  We had lots of cleaning, reorganizing, building, decluttering, and so on.  I spent tons of money.  All for a party that ended up with a pretty low turnout.  (I was…

freedom of speech

The fact that YouTube and Facebook and Vimeo (and who knows what other sharing sites) keep taking down videos/posts is very disturbing to me. And it should be to you too, regardless of your political leanings. There are plenty of things out on these sites that are fishy, untrue, creepy, angry, lies, etc. Yet, they…

The Way You Ruined Us

Death.  Grief.  Pain.  You entered our world and you sucked the joy out of us.  You changed each and every one of us.  Your impact is long-lasting. Death.  Grief. Pain.  You became a hovering presence, a grim shadow that darkened our life. Death. Grief.  Pain.  You colored our world, changing it from the bright and…

I’m Tired, Angry, Stressed, Sad

I’m tired, angry, stressed, sad. Government program… $3000 owed because of THEIR mistake…. STRESS PAPERWORK… This time of year, the moms who are saying “Oh my baby going to wherever…. Oh how will I handle it?  blah blah blah….”    I read these and think SHUT-THE-FUCK-UP…. Because, you know, my son is dead and I…

Divided We Fall 2020

  I tend to stay away from posting about divisive issues on Facebook.  I’m a peace-loving hippie sort of gal who tends to fall middle of the road on a lot of things.  Don’t get me wrong.  I have very firm beliefs about things, but I can often see both sides of those things.  I…