Blocking Things Out

I wrote about Nolan saying his chest hurt.  To be honest, I can’t quite remember his words exactly.  In the beginning, I thought he said his stomach hurt.  It was hazy.  I couldn’t remember if it was stomach or chest. Honestly, I still can’t.  But knowing what I know now, I’m sure he must have…

You Told Me Your Chest Hurt, I Screwed Up

You had asthma from the time you were a baby.  Of course, as a baby, they didn’t diagnose it as asthma.  But we were giving you breathing treatments off and on from the time you were 4 months old. You seemed healthy though.  You were always so active.  You loved the outdoors where you climbed…

Our Last Days

today is december 28, 2015.  i cannot help but think of december 28, 2012.  who knew?  who knew that i had only 3 days left with my son? December 28, 29, 30… that’s all i had.  1.2.3. then on december 31, he was gone. like that. in the blink of an eye. on december 28,…

Our Birthday Was Yesterday… Yes, “Our.”

This was my Facebook post yesterday… the day you should have been turning 16… just 3 years after your death.   16 years ago…. 16 years ago, (from this very moment in the wee hours of the morning) I fell in love, truly, deeply, immensely in love. This amazing, incomparable sort of love did happen…