Your Baby Sister is 5

I remember how good you were with your baby sister, Ella.  Initially, you were the only one I really trusted with holding her without me right there.  Of course, that resulted in you dropping her when she was about three months old.  I’ll never forget that.  We were getting ready to drive a couple hours…

1123 Days

Did you know there are websites that will calculate the duration between two dates?  So yes, now I can calculate EXACTLY how many days it has been since I lost my precious son.  Sure, I could have done so without the website.  I’m smart.  I could do the math.  For me, with Nolan’s death being…

The Neighbor Died

My boys were on the young side when they first met Larry.  I had just started feeling ok about them walking in the neighborhood without a parent.  So, I’m not sure, but I’d guess that Nolan was 11 and Liam was 9.  I could be off a little. Although I knew who Larry was because…

One of those Moments that a Grieving Person Can Understand

I almost titled this grieving parent, not person, but I realized that in this circumstance anyone grieving for a loss of a loved one would understand this particular post. I was reading through my previous post and glanced at the photograph of my children which shows my surviving 4 children holding a photo of my…

Surviving the Holidays after Loss

Here we are again, another January.  January has such a morbid significance nowadays.  I hate that. I hate so much about this new existence.  The NEW me!  The NEW family!  The NEW Normal… (I think I especially hate that phrase) Because that’s what we have after losing a child, we have a new normal. Whereas…