The Ugliness of a Grieving Mother’s Jealousy

So many times I hear of “good news” about someone who has survived something due to a “miracle” or God being so “good” and I feel some very ugly thoughts.  It’s not that I wish this same hell on anyone, but I don’t get the unfairness of it.  And I never will. I’m often faced…

Pushing People Away

Do you ever do this? I’ve seen myself do it sometimes.  I can’t say it is on purpose.  It’s not.  I thrive on social interactions, fun distracting conversations.  Yes, distracting.  Being with people is distracting from the pain. But sometimes, I just don’t have the energy to be a good friend.   I see it…

I Used to Have it More Together

I remember those early days of motherhood.  I used to make sure my kids looked so nice before we walked out the door.  I loved to have the kids in matching outfits, even better if it happened to match me.   Each kid had church shoes and church clothes.  I shopped at Gymboree, Gap Kids,…

Kids Can’t Screw Up

I find it disturbing.  More and more, I hear stories about things that either teenagers or even very, very young adults do that end up having a harmful effect on the rest of their lives. I’ve heard multiple times of an 18 year old “kid,”  (because in my opinion, 18 is still a kid) who…