I’m Tired

sometimes i wonder if i would be so tired if Nolan were alive. grief is a heavy, heavy burden. and one way i cope with that burden is to keep extremely busy.  we are ALWAYS busy.  it’s the only way I think I have survived Nolan’s death. when i do finally have some downtime, i’m…

The Not Knowing

Nolan had asthma.  And allergies. Oh, we never had him tested.  But his asthma was often seasonal.  So I’m sure there were some allergies at play. His asthma started so early.  He was a preemie.  “Healthy.”  But… he ended up in the hospital at 4 months of age with RSV.    From that point on,…