This Time of Year is Hard

As we speed toward October and what has traditionally been our favorite time of year, I find myself feeling sad and overwhelmed at unexpected moments.  I’m thinking of Nolan a lot right now.  Just those moments popping into my head as we pick our pumpkins and ella asks, Why 7?  And I have to explain…

I Miss You Son

When I think of the young man that you will never grow to be, I am overwhelmed by the unfairness of it all.  Sometimes I still catch myself thinking THIS CAN’T BE TRUE!!!! It’s been nearly 4 years. 4 freaking years.  4 hellish years.  4 miserable years.  4 anxiety-filled years.  4 I wish I had…

Grief and Divorce

I see why it happens. They say that the percentage of couples who divorce after the death of a child is astronomical. I see why. You think it won’t happen because you have both just suffered the same devastating loss.  The loss is life changing.  The loss is soul changing.  The loss is marriage changing….