As we speed toward October and what has traditionally been our favorite time of year, I find myself feeling sad and overwhelmed at unexpected moments. I’m thinking of Nolan a lot right now. Just those moments popping into my head as we pick our pumpkins and ella asks, Why 7? And I have to explain to her that she can’t forget Nolan.
I see kids in their damn homecoming photos, kids that are Nolan’s age. I hear parents talk about their kids looking at colleges. Nolan would be looking at colleges.
Everything is so hard.
I just miss him so much.