I read an interested article recently on how children who suffered from something traumatic often had chronic health issues in adulthood. It makes a lot of sense to me. Honestly, I think anyone who has suffered from something severe enough to call it PTSD will suffer chronically somehow.
Since Nolan’s death, I have been ill way more often than I used to be. I often just feel icky. I remember the summer of 2013, just 6-8 months after he died, I had the WORST cold that lasted months. Since then, it’s been number of things for me health wise.
The whole thing seems pretty unfair, doesn’t it? I mean, first, I have to suffer from losing my son. Then I have to suffer in my health because of the stress from it. And my children, who knows how they will suffer later from it. I worry about them often.
Children are resilient, but seeing your brother dead is something so traumatic. Knowing he went to bed “healthy” is such a big factor too. I know they think about it sometimes. They have to. When I was a kid and I had NOT suffered from something traumatic, I often went to bed scared that I might die in my sleep. Oh maybe not “often,” but sometimes.